[ Ooh, 'betrothed'. Iorveth is so dramatic; he loves it. It's comforting, really. Iorveth never makes him wonder. His love might be 'too much' for some, but for someone like Astarion who's been starved of it for so long, it's just enough. And that's all that matters, really, because he wants to be the only person that receives Iorveth's excessive affection for the rest of eternity. Spoiled, forever.
The tired-but-friendly gnome returns with Iorveth's requested food, balancing plates that are much too heavy for him. He places half of it in front of Iorveth and half of it in front of Astarion, presumably because he thinks that this amount of food must be for two people. (If only he'd ever seen Iorveth eat. The man is a black hole.) Astarion is in a good mood, so he only thanks him for the plates and gently pushes them toward Iorveth. ]
If you don't eat now, I won't be able to stop myself from cherishing you in a way that's not appropriate for the public.
[ Food, wine, and Astarion. This is Iorveth's idea of being thoroughly spoiled, and it shows in the visible lowering of his defenses, in the slight slant of his usually ramrod-straight posture, in the releasing of tension from his broad archer's shoulders. It makes him look younger, more like the century-and-a-half elf that he is instead of a guerilla warrior that's lived too many lifetimes to count.
He uncorks the bottle of red and pours for the both of them. ]
Threatening me with a good time. [ When has he ever cared about what's appropriate? Astarion is free to do whatever the hells he wants with him for the next tenday, at least. Maybe the next year. Engagement is a concept that will knock the wind out of Iorveth every time he thinks about it.
That said, less romantically: ] If you think I've stopped thinking about putting you in my mouth, you'd be wrong.
[ Hungry, in more ways than one. Glasses clink, and Iorveth has a sip of wine. ]
Ever since Henselt. I don't think I've stopped thinking about you.
[ Astarion watches Iorveth take a sip carefully, leaning in surreptitiously to sniff his glass before taking a drink himself. He might be slightly traumatized by the whole event. Part of him wanted to slap the glass out of Iorveth's hand and taste-test it before allowing him to drink, but that really wouldn't be romantic.
He laughs at the idea that Iorveth has been thinking about him all that time, although it does bring some pleased color to the very tips of his ears. He's not certain how long Iorveth has been on his mind. It feels as if he just wriggled his way in there one day and never left. He can recall being pulled out of bed by Lae'zel and wishing he could spend the day with Iorveth instead, which had been horrifically embarrassing to him at the time.
Gently, he knocks their knees under the table. ]
Mmm. Pest extermination [ --probably smarter than saying 'assassination' aloud in a tavern-- ] really got you hot under the collar, did it?
[ Iorveth should probably exercise more caution around red wine, but the gnome looked far too tired to make assassination attempts. Down the hatch the drink goes, alongside generous slices of bread stacked with cheeses and sliced meat. The void yawning in Iorveth's gut that serves as his stomach is grateful for the tribute.
Only minimally distracted by the food, Iorveth tangles ankles with Astarion as he considers the question with raised-brow fondness. ]
Pest extermination usually does. [ The expected (deranged) response. It's also an exaggeration― despite Iorveth's offhanded approach to brutality, he's a pragmatist, not a sadist― but he likes to lean into the character when he can. His own mask of sorts, one he only wears to be funny around Astarion, and not to intimidate.
That said, less insanely: ] But if you hadn't agreed to share my bed that night, I doubt we would be where we are right now.
[ If Astarion's reaction had been "ew gross", it's very likely that Iorveth's budding crush would have been, well, crushed. Funny in hindsight, how much of a turning point that entire night'd been for Iorveth. ]
[ Even now, it's still odd to remember being asked to share Iorveth's bed — just share it, he'd insisted. It wasn't anything he had felt like he deserved. For someone to simply want to be near him, without any ulterior motive, had been unthinkable. And yet there Iorveth had been, on the mattress beside him, a polite two inches between them and not a come-on to be found. It had felt a little like playing at being someone else, someone who was allowed that sort of chaste closeness, because he sure wasn't.
He rests his head on Iorveth's shoulder, leaning against him in a way that's just overly affectionate enough to be grating to most onlookers. Luckily, there's no half-orcs in here to demand they get a room. ]
You were so adorable. You were very careful not to let our nethers touch.
[ Which had actually been quite striking to him, but he's still allowed to tease Iorveth about it. ]
That was the first time I ever shared someone's bed without— [ He falters, not wanting to ruin the mood by dredging up anything too unpleasant. ] Well, I'm sure you know. It was... special.
[ Very adorable. Iorveth refrains from touching Astarion's hair while he's still using them to eat (no one wants cheese grease on their curls), but he nuzzles into that nestle, shifting to make that perch against his shoulder more comfortable.
(A few feet away, the two half-elf women flag the tired-looking gnome proprietor over and whisper something animatedly into his ear. The poor man looks even more exhausted, but nods and heads towards the kitchen.) ]
Your first time. [ He hums, voice low. ] An honor, that.
[ Without delving too deeply into why it would have been Astarion's first time. Also trying not to ruin the mood. ]
You were the only thing that made me feel safe that night. I didn't wish to confuse that safety for anything else.
[ Iorveth was his first time for many things. Everything, really, at least everything that counts. His first time being so consumed with thoughts of someone that he couldn't think straight. His first time wanting to kiss someone as much as throttle them. His first time feeling like he mattered.
There are lots of 'firsts' left in his world. There's no one he'd rather experience them with than Iorveth.
He likes knowing that Iorveth feels safe with him, because he is safe with Astarion. Iorveth's well-being has somehow become more important to him than his own. Still, he picks his head up off of Iorveth's shoulder, glancing at him with a raised eyebrow. ]
You weren't worried at all about having a dangerous creature of the night in your bed?
[ He sounds slightly disappointed that Iorveth wasn't intimidated, like, a little. ]
[ From 'very adorable' to 'very funny'. Iorveth takes a moment to digest that telegraphed disappointment, and, like the rude elf he is, laughs about it. ]
I gave the 'dangerous creature of the night' many reasons and opportunities to harm me before that night. If you truly wanted to kill me, you would have done it―
[ Hm. ] ―Before or after the Goblin Camp, I think.
[ When they were all mostly just disparate travelers banded together out of convenience rather than any sense of camaraderie. Seems like ages ago that Shadowheart woke Lae'zel up with a knife to her throat. Good times. ]
Or you would have left me to rot in Henselt's dungeon. Easier, and less work for you.
[ To the tune of "I know how much you hate work." ]
[ Rude, and true. The easiest way to rid himself of Iorveth would have been to leave him to someone else; there has never been any shortage of people who want to kill him. Astarion would be lying if he said that he hadn't thought about it — not when they'd taken on Henselt, but much earlier, back when they'd first met. He'd thought Iorveth the most likely to kill him should his condition come to light, and he knew that he'd have to protect himself if that were the case.
Strange. Now, Iorveth is the only one who truly accepts him for his vampirism rather than just tolerates it as an eccentric quirk of his. ]
I would have missed your scowling at me.
[ He'd hated that scowl. Being on the receiving end of it often made him so irritated that he's not sure now if it was really hatred at all or just desire twisted into something more palatable. ]
Ugh, I suppose you made me soft, even back then. How embarrassing.
[ Flashback to Iorveth and Lae'zel standing with their arms folded, discussing whether they should get rid of the lying vampire in their camp while the rest of the crew made impassioned cases－ mostly having to do with lockpicking－ for keeping Astarion around.
A memory better left remembered and unspoken. Iorveth swallows it alongside his food, wipes his hand on a starched napkin that the gnome kindly brought with the spread, and traces Astarion's lower lip with his thumb. ]
It's what I fell in love with.
[ He says, completely unashamed by the admission. Competing with Astarion in the 'I love you more' and the 'I fell in love with you first' Olympics. He acknowledges how annoying this is, but he doesn't stop being convinced anyway.
Leaning in, he presses a wine-stained kiss to Astarion's mouth. From the kitchen, there's the scent of something sweet baking in the oven. ]
My first time being blindsided so thoroughly by anyone. You still surprise me, constantly.
[ Astarion looks almost bashful, which is not a common expression on him. He could listen to Iorveth talk about falling in love with him all night. He wishes he could capture the sound of it so that he could listen to it whenever he wanted, on demand. The next best thing, he supposes, is to demand that Iorveth recount it whenever he pleases.]
Oh, did you swoon?
[ Asked with a wry quirk of his lips. He's not sure Iorveth is physically capable of swooning. ]
Were you awestruck at how terribly dashing I was?
[ He vaguely recalls getting bonked on the head, but they don't have to talk about that part. ]
I thought you were an idiot, [ is probably the sort of reply that could make a romantic dinner crash and burn, but it's the truth. To offset that bluntness, Iorveth presses another light kiss to the corner of Astarion's mouth (the two half-elves giggle behind their hands again) and continues: ]
You had your entire future and freedom ahead of you, and you chose to stay instead of run. It was foolish－ so much so that it made me realize that your future and freedom were important to me.
[ Startling revelations. Astarion wasn't just another member of the party that Iorveth could say goodbye to and be fine with occasionally meeting, sharing stories, being friendly with. Iorveth felt protective of him, in a way that wasn't just about camaraderie.
A low huff, warm and affectionate. ]
Gods, I was so angry. At you, I thought. But the truth of it was that I was angry with the human who dared lay a finger on you. And angry with myself, for putting you in that position.
[ Being called an idiot is very much not romantic, but it isn't surprising coming from Iorveth, either. Iorveth has probably called him a fool more times than anything else. Hells, maybe he is an idiot, but there was nothing foolish about staying behind for Iorveth. It had been a split-second decision, made on emotion and impulse, but he doesn't regret it. He never could. ]
Yes, well, you made a grave mistake.
[ In choosing Astarion to help him with his crusade, for one. For two: ] You made me like you.
[ A snort, though the sound is laced with too much amusement to be acerbic. He's very resistable, and it's only Astarion who has cared to be dogged enough to think or believe otherwise.
Gods, Astarion is perfect. Iorveth has thought this a few thousand times already, but the observation feels novel every time it crosses his mind. Craning back an inch, he watches Astarion twinkle in candlelight, silver and red and everything beautiful about the world, sharp and quick and well-spoken, resilient and wary and strong. It makes him think that maybe Astarion was right about wanting immortality for him: forever doesn't seem long enough time to appreciate someone so singular.
His hand flits to Astarion's jaw, tracing the well-defined line of it up to his ear. ]
The only mistake I'd ever make more than once.
[ The only exception to his mantra of "never again". Iorveth's lips hike in a smile that he can't help, and he presses that elation against Astarion's mouth in what must be the hundredth kiss of the night (who's counting?). The contact is long, lingering, uncaring of anyone that might be watching.
When their lips finally part: ] I love you. Terribly, and without apology. I'll have you know that I don't equivocate when it comes to my devotion. You'll have all of it, or none at all.
[ Iorveth talks to him like he's somehow remained unaware of how deranged Iorveth is for all this time. He knows that Iorveth doesn't equivocate when it comes to anything, and he finds it ridiculously, unreasonably attractive. Two of the most insane elves you've ever met, looking at each other and going exactlyyyy. ]
I want all of it. All of you.
[ Because every part of Iorveth is wonderful, including the parts of him that might be 'too much' for other (weaker, in Astarion's expert opinion) people. Maybe it's the vampire in him, or maybe it's just that he never had the opportunity to love someone else in a less all-encompassing way, but he doesn't see the point in loving Iorveth without devouring him a little.
That being said, he's not a big fan of 'none at all'. What do you mean, you'd give him no love at all? Doesn't Iorveth know that without his love he would wither and die like a plant someone forgot to water?
In his most forcibly casual voice, because he's still trying not to ruin the mood: ] You would give me none at all?
[ The question is absurd, but it inspires cute aggression instead of irritation: that omnipresent desire to (gently) push Astarion against a wall and dote on him until he melts into a puddle. ]
If you want all of it, beloved, none isn't an option.
[ It's the depth of 'all' that Astarion should be worried about, but Iorveth is slowly coming to terms with the idea that, despite all the ways in which he's encouraged Astarion to look beyond what he can provide (Iorveth is just one elf in a world full of many, many perspectives), Astarion is, impossibly, happy with him. ]
You'll never have to question whether you have my love.
[ Exhibit A: Iorveth can't stop fucking kissing him, which Astarion really should not be encouraging or normalizing. Another peck to the corner of Astarion's lovely mouth as punctuation, and Iorveth hovers near him, ignoring the poor gnome who has come out of the kitchen holding something that looks very much like a little cake. The poor guy is clearly having a hard time knowing when to interrupt. ]
[ It is very hard to know when to interrupt, because they're being the disgusting sort of couple Astarion always sneered at. Gods, he would think if he saw himself and Iorveth on the street. Don't they know it's impolite to eat each other's faces in public? And then he'd probably fantasize about them getting mauled by a bear.
He hadn't been the biggest fan of other people's happiness back then.
Iorveth kisses the corner of his mouth, and he responds by kissing Iorveth full on the lips, because he's competitive even in this, resolved to one-up Iorveth in kisses and I love you mores. The poor gnome clears his throat, and Astarion tears himself away—just slightly—to look at the pastry he's carrying.
Of course, he instantly suspects a scam, cynic that he is. ]
We didn't order that, [ he says dismissively, waving the gnome off. ] We won't be paying for it.
[ It's a simple pastry, a sponge cake with a small heart drawn on the top in icing, and the gnome hovers around with it in his hands like the world's most awkward little creature.
Eventually, after he registers the rebuff, he sighs: "it's from the two ladies at the other table." A gesture to indicate who he means, and the two young half-elves titter amongst themselves again, waving and mouthing 'congratulations!'
Iorveth's attention see-saws from the women to the gnome, and finally to the cake, which he absolutely shouldn't accept given how he almost died from ingesting strange offerings less than a day ago. But as far as assassinations go, this one really is far too obvious and far too spontaneously sweet to suspect. ]
Thank you, [ he says, reaching for the plate to provide the exhausted-looking gnome with some measure of relief. ] Congratulations are in order, I suppose.
[ Angling to kiss Astarion's cheek, one-upping the one-upping. The rudest elf in the world. ]
[ It feels strange to just be given something. What, there's no cost? No hidden agenda, just two women who wanted to make them happy? He's not used to such things, and in fact it's in his nature to suspect them, but— Iorveth agreed to be his, forever, tonight. He finds himself with a brighter outlook than usual. ]
Thank you, [ he says awkwardly, the words still feeling a bit strange in his mouth. He's not accustomed to showing gratitude to anyone who isn't Iorveth. ]
My love does favor sweet things.
[ His hand finds its way to Iorveth's leg again, and Astarion flashes a crooked smile at him. ]
[ Even more cute aggression. Fairly certain that Astarion of the past would have, again, gagged at the idea of calling Iorveth sweet in public, and finding the lack of sarcasm in his tone very endearing. If only this were just a lover's vacation, and they didn't have a man strung up in their room and a hag to contend with.
"Enjoy," the gnome sighs, and shuffles away with the air of someone who has done one too many graveyard shifts; the women at the other table give enthusiastic gestures of approval before making an exaggerated show of averting their eyes― "we're not peeking!"― despite Iorveth knowing that that promise will last a handful of seconds, if that.
Absurd, but pleasant. Iorveth hums, takes a beat to consider, then nudges the plate and silverware over to Astarion with confident ease. ]
Do me the honors, [ he offers, then leans in expectantly. The very picture of a fox waiting to eat out of its favorite human's hand; he wonders if Astarion will push back against something so saccharine. ]
[ It is saccharine. Incredibly so. Sweetness churns my stomach, he hears himself say. It sounds distant. It sounds like someone else's voice. He picks up the fork, pressing it into the soft cake until it cuts through, slicing off a small chunk.
When he'd said he wanted to explore everything with Iorveth, he hadn't only meant the deviant things—cock rings and public sex and whatever the hells else Iorveth has in that mind of his—but other things, too, softer things. He wants to experience everything that he never thought he would. That includes being ridiculously, embarrassingly soppy in public.
Still, he does have an image to maintain, so as he holds the fork to Iorveth's lips, he snarks, ] You only want me to put something your mouth.
[ This isn't even entirely scandalous to Iorveth, whose communalist upbringing (as brief as it'd been, before being subsumed by conflict) has acclimated him to the general idea of sharing and empathetic living; it just seems scandalous for him, a man who has promised to be a blade for his community instead of a member of it.
Opening his mouth to be fed isn't exactly 'dangerous terrorist to be feared' behavior. He does it anyway, safe in the knowledge that Astarion won't judge him for it, and confident that, if anyone in this tavern laughs at him (them) in a cruel or malicious way, he can still kill them without trying very hard at all.
His lips close over the fork, and he takes the offered bite. ]
And yet here you are, [ he says through the mouthful, ] encouraging it.
[ Astarion could simply say no, and make it known to Iorveth that he doesn't find these things pleasant or appropriate; Iorveth would stop in a heartbeat. But there hasn't been pushback yet, and Iorveth waits until he swallows that bit of cake to press his sugar-stained lips against Astarion's, sharing the dessert without actually sharing it (he's not sure if food violently disagrees with Astarion's undead physiology). ]
[ Against Iorveth's warm mouth, he smiles; it's something he's been doing a lot lately. He used to smile often before, too, but it was different. Practiced things, megawatt smiles that never reached his eyes. He doesn't think about how to smile in the most charming way, or just how wide enough to grin not to show his fangs, or how to make it properly simpering enough in the eyes of his master. He doesn't think about anything at all, except Iorveth's mouth against his. ]
I happen to rather enjoy seeing you with things in your mouth.
[ He carves another piece of cake off with his fork, spearing it and holding it up for consumption. ]
And I find that, despite all odds, I actually like tending to you. [ An incredulous little laugh. He isn't exactly a nurturing soul. ] I know, I can hardly believe it myself.
[ Gods, Astarion really is going to feed him the rest of this cake. Far be it for Iorveth to stop what he started, though: spurred on by the arch of Astarion's smile and an assertion that he's enjoying himself, Iorveth takes the offered bite. ]
You're better at it than you know. [ He should write a book. "How to Care for Your Terrorist-Slash-Freedom-Fighter". ] And I didn't think anyone ever would.
[ Care for him. Especially not after getting half his face torn apart. Iorveth had never believed the humans when they said that the disfigurement made him less of an elf, but he had internalized, to some extent, that he became too strange to love.
A soft exhale, fond, and Iorveth straightens just a bit to run a hand through Astarion's hair. ]
You continue to be a miracle in every way that counts.
[ Astarion laughs. Is he good at taking care of Iorveth at all? He has no point of reference for caring; no one's ever done it for him besides Iorveth, so he really has no idea what someone is supposed to do. Like everything about this relationship, he just stumbles his way through it blindly.
But he does enjoy doing it. Case in point: another forkful of cake held out for Iorveth. He tilts his head to watch Iorveth eat, strangely amused by the sight. A feral woodland creature eating out of his hand. ]
You make me want to be what you see in me, [ he confesses. There's nothing miraculous about him, but if Iorveth can think that, maybe it's something he can become. ]
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The tired-but-friendly gnome returns with Iorveth's requested food, balancing plates that are much too heavy for him. He places half of it in front of Iorveth and half of it in front of Astarion, presumably because he thinks that this amount of food must be for two people. (If only he'd ever seen Iorveth eat. The man is a black hole.) Astarion is in a good mood, so he only thanks him for the plates and gently pushes them toward Iorveth. ]
If you don't eat now, I won't be able to stop myself from cherishing you in a way that's not appropriate for the public.
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He uncorks the bottle of red and pours for the both of them. ]
Threatening me with a good time. [ When has he ever cared about what's appropriate? Astarion is free to do whatever the hells he wants with him for the next tenday, at least. Maybe the next year. Engagement is a concept that will knock the wind out of Iorveth every time he thinks about it.
That said, less romantically: ] If you think I've stopped thinking about putting you in my mouth, you'd be wrong.
[ Hungry, in more ways than one. Glasses clink, and Iorveth has a sip of wine. ]
Ever since Henselt. I don't think I've stopped thinking about you.
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He laughs at the idea that Iorveth has been thinking about him all that time, although it does bring some pleased color to the very tips of his ears. He's not certain how long Iorveth has been on his mind. It feels as if he just wriggled his way in there one day and never left. He can recall being pulled out of bed by Lae'zel and wishing he could spend the day with Iorveth instead, which had been horrifically embarrassing to him at the time.
Gently, he knocks their knees under the table. ]
Mmm. Pest extermination [ --probably smarter than saying 'assassination' aloud in a tavern-- ] really got you hot under the collar, did it?
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Only minimally distracted by the food, Iorveth tangles ankles with Astarion as he considers the question with raised-brow fondness. ]
Pest extermination usually does. [ The expected (deranged) response. It's also an exaggeration― despite Iorveth's offhanded approach to brutality, he's a pragmatist, not a sadist― but he likes to lean into the character when he can. His own mask of sorts, one he only wears to be funny around Astarion, and not to intimidate.
That said, less insanely: ] But if you hadn't agreed to share my bed that night, I doubt we would be where we are right now.
[ If Astarion's reaction had been "ew gross", it's very likely that Iorveth's budding crush would have been, well, crushed. Funny in hindsight, how much of a turning point that entire night'd been for Iorveth. ]
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He rests his head on Iorveth's shoulder, leaning against him in a way that's just overly affectionate enough to be grating to most onlookers. Luckily, there's no half-orcs in here to demand they get a room. ]
You were so adorable. You were very careful not to let our nethers touch.
[ Which had actually been quite striking to him, but he's still allowed to tease Iorveth about it. ]
That was the first time I ever shared someone's bed without— [ He falters, not wanting to ruin the mood by dredging up anything too unpleasant. ] Well, I'm sure you know. It was... special.
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(A few feet away, the two half-elf women flag the tired-looking gnome proprietor over and whisper something animatedly into his ear. The poor man looks even more exhausted, but nods and heads towards the kitchen.) ]
Your first time. [ He hums, voice low. ] An honor, that.
[ Without delving too deeply into why it would have been Astarion's first time. Also trying not to ruin the mood. ]
You were the only thing that made me feel safe that night. I didn't wish to confuse that safety for anything else.
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There are lots of 'firsts' left in his world. There's no one he'd rather experience them with than Iorveth.
He likes knowing that Iorveth feels safe with him, because he is safe with Astarion. Iorveth's well-being has somehow become more important to him than his own. Still, he picks his head up off of Iorveth's shoulder, glancing at him with a raised eyebrow. ]
You weren't worried at all about having a dangerous creature of the night in your bed?
[ He sounds slightly disappointed that Iorveth wasn't intimidated, like, a little. ]
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I gave the 'dangerous creature of the night' many reasons and opportunities to harm me before that night. If you truly wanted to kill me, you would have done it―
[ Hm. ] ―Before or after the Goblin Camp, I think.
[ When they were all mostly just disparate travelers banded together out of convenience rather than any sense of camaraderie. Seems like ages ago that Shadowheart woke Lae'zel up with a knife to her throat. Good times. ]
Or you would have left me to rot in Henselt's dungeon. Easier, and less work for you.
[ To the tune of "I know how much you hate work." ]
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Strange. Now, Iorveth is the only one who truly accepts him for his vampirism rather than just tolerates it as an eccentric quirk of his. ]
I would have missed your scowling at me.
[ He'd hated that scowl. Being on the receiving end of it often made him so irritated that he's not sure now if it was really hatred at all or just desire twisted into something more palatable. ]
Ugh, I suppose you made me soft, even back then. How embarrassing.
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A memory better left remembered and unspoken. Iorveth swallows it alongside his food, wipes his hand on a starched napkin that the gnome kindly brought with the spread, and traces Astarion's lower lip with his thumb. ]
It's what I fell in love with.
[ He says, completely unashamed by the admission. Competing with Astarion in the 'I love you more' and the 'I fell in love with you first' Olympics. He acknowledges how annoying this is, but he doesn't stop being convinced anyway.
Leaning in, he presses a wine-stained kiss to Astarion's mouth. From the kitchen, there's the scent of something sweet baking in the oven. ]
My first time being blindsided so thoroughly by anyone. You still surprise me, constantly.
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Oh, did you swoon?
[ Asked with a wry quirk of his lips. He's not sure Iorveth is physically capable of swooning. ]
Were you awestruck at how terribly dashing I was?
[ He vaguely recalls getting bonked on the head, but they don't have to talk about that part. ]
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You had your entire future and freedom ahead of you, and you chose to stay instead of run. It was foolish－ so much so that it made me realize that your future and freedom were important to me.
[ Startling revelations. Astarion wasn't just another member of the party that Iorveth could say goodbye to and be fine with occasionally meeting, sharing stories, being friendly with. Iorveth felt protective of him, in a way that wasn't just about camaraderie.
A low huff, warm and affectionate. ]
Gods, I was so angry. At you, I thought. But the truth of it was that I was angry with the human who dared lay a finger on you. And angry with myself, for putting you in that position.
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Yes, well, you made a grave mistake.
[ In choosing Astarion to help him with his crusade, for one. For two: ] You made me like you.
[ Another knock of their knees. ]
You should have tried being more resistible.
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Gods, Astarion is perfect. Iorveth has thought this a few thousand times already, but the observation feels novel every time it crosses his mind. Craning back an inch, he watches Astarion twinkle in candlelight, silver and red and everything beautiful about the world, sharp and quick and well-spoken, resilient and wary and strong. It makes him think that maybe Astarion was right about wanting immortality for him: forever doesn't seem long enough time to appreciate someone so singular.
His hand flits to Astarion's jaw, tracing the well-defined line of it up to his ear. ]
The only mistake I'd ever make more than once.
[ The only exception to his mantra of "never again". Iorveth's lips hike in a smile that he can't help, and he presses that elation against Astarion's mouth in what must be the hundredth kiss of the night (who's counting?). The contact is long, lingering, uncaring of anyone that might be watching.
When their lips finally part: ] I love you. Terribly, and without apology. I'll have you know that I don't equivocate when it comes to my devotion. You'll have all of it, or none at all.
[ "All of it" is, in fact, a bit of a threat. ]
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I want all of it. All of you.
[ Because every part of Iorveth is wonderful, including the parts of him that might be 'too much' for other (weaker, in Astarion's expert opinion) people. Maybe it's the vampire in him, or maybe it's just that he never had the opportunity to love someone else in a less all-encompassing way, but he doesn't see the point in loving Iorveth without devouring him a little.
That being said, he's not a big fan of 'none at all'. What do you mean, you'd give him no love at all? Doesn't Iorveth know that without his love he would wither and die like a plant someone forgot to water?
In his most forcibly casual voice, because he's still trying not to ruin the mood: ] You would give me none at all?
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If you want all of it, beloved, none isn't an option.
[ It's the depth of 'all' that Astarion should be worried about, but Iorveth is slowly coming to terms with the idea that, despite all the ways in which he's encouraged Astarion to look beyond what he can provide (Iorveth is just one elf in a world full of many, many perspectives), Astarion is, impossibly, happy with him. ]
You'll never have to question whether you have my love.
[ Exhibit A: Iorveth can't stop fucking kissing him, which Astarion really should not be encouraging or normalizing. Another peck to the corner of Astarion's lovely mouth as punctuation, and Iorveth hovers near him, ignoring the poor gnome who has come out of the kitchen holding something that looks very much like a little cake. The poor guy is clearly having a hard time knowing when to interrupt. ]
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He hadn't been the biggest fan of other people's happiness back then.
Iorveth kisses the corner of his mouth, and he responds by kissing Iorveth full on the lips, because he's competitive even in this, resolved to one-up Iorveth in kisses and I love you mores. The poor gnome clears his throat, and Astarion tears himself away—just slightly—to look at the pastry he's carrying.
Of course, he instantly suspects a scam, cynic that he is. ]
We didn't order that, [ he says dismissively, waving the gnome off. ] We won't be paying for it.
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Eventually, after he registers the rebuff, he sighs: "it's from the two ladies at the other table." A gesture to indicate who he means, and the two young half-elves titter amongst themselves again, waving and mouthing 'congratulations!'
Iorveth's attention see-saws from the women to the gnome, and finally to the cake, which he absolutely shouldn't accept given how he almost died from ingesting strange offerings less than a day ago. But as far as assassinations go, this one really is far too obvious and far too spontaneously sweet to suspect. ]
Thank you, [ he says, reaching for the plate to provide the exhausted-looking gnome with some measure of relief. ] Congratulations are in order, I suppose.
[ Angling to kiss Astarion's cheek, one-upping the one-upping. The rudest elf in the world. ]
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[ It feels strange to just be given something. What, there's no cost? No hidden agenda, just two women who wanted to make them happy? He's not used to such things, and in fact it's in his nature to suspect them, but— Iorveth agreed to be his, forever, tonight. He finds himself with a brighter outlook than usual. ]
Thank you, [ he says awkwardly, the words still feeling a bit strange in his mouth. He's not accustomed to showing gratitude to anyone who isn't Iorveth. ]
My love does favor sweet things.
[ His hand finds its way to Iorveth's leg again, and Astarion flashes a crooked smile at him. ]
As do I.
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"Enjoy," the gnome sighs, and shuffles away with the air of someone who has done one too many graveyard shifts; the women at the other table give enthusiastic gestures of approval before making an exaggerated show of averting their eyes― "we're not peeking!"― despite Iorveth knowing that that promise will last a handful of seconds, if that.
Absurd, but pleasant. Iorveth hums, takes a beat to consider, then nudges the plate and silverware over to Astarion with confident ease. ]
Do me the honors, [ he offers, then leans in expectantly. The very picture of a fox waiting to eat out of its favorite human's hand; he wonders if Astarion will push back against something so saccharine. ]
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When he'd said he wanted to explore everything with Iorveth, he hadn't only meant the deviant things—cock rings and public sex and whatever the hells else Iorveth has in that mind of his—but other things, too, softer things. He wants to experience everything that he never thought he would. That includes being ridiculously, embarrassingly soppy in public.
Still, he does have an image to maintain, so as he holds the fork to Iorveth's lips, he snarks, ] You only want me to put something your mouth.
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Opening his mouth to be fed isn't exactly 'dangerous terrorist to be feared' behavior. He does it anyway, safe in the knowledge that Astarion won't judge him for it, and confident that, if anyone in this tavern laughs at him (them) in a cruel or malicious way, he can still kill them without trying very hard at all.
His lips close over the fork, and he takes the offered bite. ]
And yet here you are, [ he says through the mouthful, ] encouraging it.
[ Astarion could simply say no, and make it known to Iorveth that he doesn't find these things pleasant or appropriate; Iorveth would stop in a heartbeat. But there hasn't been pushback yet, and Iorveth waits until he swallows that bit of cake to press his sugar-stained lips against Astarion's, sharing the dessert without actually sharing it (he's not sure if food violently disagrees with Astarion's undead physiology). ]
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I happen to rather enjoy seeing you with things in your mouth.
[ He carves another piece of cake off with his fork, spearing it and holding it up for consumption. ]
And I find that, despite all odds, I actually like tending to you. [ An incredulous little laugh. He isn't exactly a nurturing soul. ] I know, I can hardly believe it myself.
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You're better at it than you know. [ He should write a book. "How to Care for Your Terrorist-Slash-Freedom-Fighter". ] And I didn't think anyone ever would.
[ Care for him. Especially not after getting half his face torn apart. Iorveth had never believed the humans when they said that the disfigurement made him less of an elf, but he had internalized, to some extent, that he became too strange to love.
A soft exhale, fond, and Iorveth straightens just a bit to run a hand through Astarion's hair. ]
You continue to be a miracle in every way that counts.
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But he does enjoy doing it. Case in point: another forkful of cake held out for Iorveth. He tilts his head to watch Iorveth eat, strangely amused by the sight. A feral woodland creature eating out of his hand. ]
You make me want to be what you see in me, [ he confesses. There's nothing miraculous about him, but if Iorveth can think that, maybe it's something he can become. ]
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