[ A long moment passes, during which Iorveth would be rational to think that Astarion doesn't intend to answer. It isn't that he doesn't want to, because he does. He trusts Iorveth to hold his fragile emotions in his hand without crushing them. It's himself he doesn't trust with them.
Finally: ] In the nightmares, I often come to think that all of this is the dream, and that I've really just woken up.
[ There is no worse thing that could happen to him. The feeling that none of the happiest moments of his life were ever even real is the lowest he's ever felt. ]
You are everything good in this world, you know.
[ He probably shouldn't say this. Iorveth might try to lecture him, again, about how there's still good experiences in the world that have nothing to do with him. On some level, he realizes that this is true, but on a purely emotional level—the level he operates on most frequently—it seems that there's no happiness he's ever felt that Iorveth's fingerprints aren't all over. ]
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Finally: ] In the nightmares, I often come to think that all of this is the dream, and that I've really just woken up.
[ There is no worse thing that could happen to him. The feeling that none of the happiest moments of his life were ever even real is the lowest he's ever felt. ]
You are everything good in this world, you know.
[ He probably shouldn't say this. Iorveth might try to lecture him, again, about how there's still good experiences in the world that have nothing to do with him. On some level, he realizes that this is true, but on a purely emotional level—the level he operates on most frequently—it seems that there's no happiness he's ever felt that Iorveth's fingerprints aren't all over. ]