[ Like confirmation that killing Cazador hadn't even mattered, because he'd still changed Astarion irreparably. No matter what, there'll always be a piece of him that remains. He'd been so angry, too, thinking of the celebrating his companions must have been doing. They'd finally been freed, when he'd just been shackled again. Only Karlach would possibly understand, and it isn't like he can just send a letter to Avernus to talk about it. ]
I couldn't bear for you see me in that state. [ Part of him hadn't ever wanted to be seen again. It was just as humiliating to come crawling back at nightfall.
A humorless laugh. ] Well, look at me now.
[ In the span of one day, Iorveth has seen him in nearly every way that Astarion would never want him to. A helpless victim, a hiding cockroach. He feels sick with self-disgust. ]
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[ Like confirmation that killing Cazador hadn't even mattered, because he'd still changed Astarion irreparably. No matter what, there'll always be a piece of him that remains. He'd been so angry, too, thinking of the celebrating his companions must have been doing. They'd finally been freed, when he'd just been shackled again. Only Karlach would possibly understand, and it isn't like he can just send a letter to Avernus to talk about it. ]
I couldn't bear for you see me in that state. [ Part of him hadn't ever wanted to be seen again. It was just as humiliating to come crawling back at nightfall.
A humorless laugh. ] Well, look at me now.
[ In the span of one day, Iorveth has seen him in nearly every way that Astarion would never want him to. A helpless victim, a hiding cockroach. He feels sick with self-disgust. ]